done.

i know that i said that i wouldn’t post as often, if at all, but i don’t know. i’m just really scared that i won’t be able to get into the colleges i want too. i’m scared that whatever i do now doesn’t mean shit. i feel like no matter how good i do now, it doesn’t mean shit because of my crappy g.p.a. I feel like i’m worth a higher gpa but in reality i know that i’m not. this is all my fault. if i put more effort in when i was younger, this wouldn’t be a problem. that child that i used to date and i are completely over. i know i’ve said this before, but now it’s finally legit. i feel like we had to break up three times because it actually was true. we’re not even staying friends anymore. not yet. not until we can. or if i ever feel like being friends again. my feet are insanely cold, and i’m seriously hoping that tomorrow is a good day. i wrote something for creative writing, and i actually enjoyed it. it may be shit though. i’m debating about posting it here. all done.